| by Kenneth Chase | 100 comments

why i left school

okay this video you know, i’m a little, i’m on edge okay, i’m a little bit on edge because I’ve kinda been putting this off i don’t know. It’s not like anything i’ve ever made before I’m like nervous but i really want to tell you guys more about what’s going on in my life, because there’s a certain part of my life that i feel like I’m kind of hiding, from you guys. And, this isn’t fucking clickbait. This isn’t like some sort of like let me just get into it, i guess. so, this is kind of going to be a combination of the story of why I left school, combined with why i started my youtube channel. and it all kind of ties in together, and it’s kind of just my story. I don’t know. like, not my story of my whole life, this isn’t like a draw my life here’s kinda…what happened i guess let’s start out with why i started my youtube channel So, i’m a junior in high school, right now. I’m 16. Junior in high school. blah blah blah okay, flash backwards to sophomore year. the end of the year, second semester. to put it in simple terms i was just having a shitty time like ass i maybe showed up to school 3 times a week i couldn’t fucking do it. like i would just sit in class and i would just cry like i don’t even know why. it wasn’t my school’s fault. it wasn’t anyone’s fault i just didn’t like the environment i totally had too much on my plate. at this point i wasn’t even doing youtube yet, mind you this was when i was literally just in school like that was my only like kind of thing that i was doing in my life towards the end of the year, I i had became severely depressed i couldn’t go to school. I couldn’t hang out with my friends i had completely cut off all my friends i didn’t hang out on the weekends i didn’t do anything. And it sucked. i mean it really fucking sucked. and of course, i’m pretty sure everyone’s probably felt something close to it. whether it’s in a very small or a very large kind of way second semester of sophomore year was probably one of the worst times i’ve had i didn’t even come to the last day of school the last day of school was June first the day before that was May 30th right? i think. yeah. on May 30th i took my driver’s test i failed. i was fucking so sad because to me getting my license was like this will give me a way to escape, ya know if i’m having a hard day if i’m feeling fucking depressed as hell and i just like want to have some time to myself if i just wanna like go and get food, by myself if i just want to like spend time by myself i felt like having my license was something that could give me that and so i was kinda connecting getting my drivers license with like having an escape from what i was going through so when i failed my test my depression immediately got worse I mean it was so bad like I literally couldn’t get out of my bed thus I didn’t go to school the last day, which was the last day of school so i was really upset and i ended up talking to my dad for like i don’t know two and a half hours or something just about, like, what am i gonna do? like, i need something that can, like, help me escape from what i’m going through thus, i started my youtube channel. First video I posted was, like, a lookbook, or something. right. May 30th was such a f***king sh*ty day for me I was like, I need to like get my head out of this immediately I want to just like start a YouTube channel. I don’t know why. I just wanted to do that. So then, the next day, I went to San Francisco with my dad He filmed the video for me next day I post it, it was up and all this began over the summer I was posting almost everyday. for a while there I was just like vlogging all my vacation I mean I was hardcore on that youtube grind like you best believe I loved it it was so great fully pulled me out of my depression 100 percent in the beginning there I didn’t even care who how many people like saw my video I didn’t care about my views I didn’t care about my subscribers I didn’t, like, not that I didn’t care about my subcribers But I didn’t care about the number of subscribers I had I was just excited to be doing something new with my life like I was just excited to be starting a new journey with my life, I guess it kinda gave me this feeling of hope that depression wasn’t ruling my life I had something else that was making me happy, and that was YouTube and it still, to this day continues to do that for me and I’m eternally grateful, if that’s even the right word to use fast-forward to the end of summer I kinda rekindled my friendships with some of friends and, I was kinda back to normal i wasn’t depressed anymore i was almost fully outta that i wasn’t.. i was really emotionally stable like, i could have a shitty ass day and like at the end of the day I would still be smiling, ya know it was good, i was really stable start school, junior year and i’ve always been somebody who is super into school if you will i really work hard at school i really put a lot of effort into school it’s something that i’ve always prioritised as my number one thing that was like what i thought my future was i thought that my future was gonna like be determined by what my grades were etc. and that’s why i put so much effort into it but for me, during this year, i started out and I, of course, i was taking a lot of AP’s and I was taking a lot of honours and it was… it was a lot! and I quickly fell back into a very, very depressed state and it was very hard for me to film videos it was very hard for me to edit videos I remember there were multiple nights where I pulled all-nighters trying to be able to do youtube and school because for me youtube was what kept me… sane.. in a way so it was like for me, i would rather not sleep and get a video up because getting that video up is the only thing that gives me an ounce of happiness while being at school literally made me wanna die i started falling back into my old habits, i wasn’t showing up to school I was late, like everyday sometimes i’d pull up to school, i’d be sitting in the car, and i’d be fucking balling my eyes out and I just couldn’t go in, and I’d have to drive home I don’t know exactly what it is about school and what about it made me so.. depressed! but… it was so bad! i would meet with my counsellor weekly, my school counsellor trying to find out a way that I could.. adjust my schedule trying to find a way that I could f- ya know trying to make my work load less impossible, and… it just was impossible. i could not cope with being at school it just got to the point where… it was simple! one morning I literally woke up and I was like ‘I will never go to that school again’ and I told my parents


rachel Billar

Jul 7, 2019, 4:13 am Reply

Most helpful video ever.

Fill My Mouth With Dirt

Jul 7, 2019, 5:09 am Reply

she looks retarded

Trolo Dan

Jul 7, 2019, 6:46 pm Reply

Yea i don't ship school

love u emma❤

Kenz Lee

Jul 7, 2019, 7:37 pm Reply

i don’t wanna do school like it’s not the path i wanna take in life, i wanna have a yt channel, move to la and model bc it’s my passion and agency’s have been reaching out to me for modeling! but my parents are like controlling and are like “no you are doing high school” but i wanna literally just move to la and do my own thing, and they don’t understand that you don’t need to go to college for a job like there’s so much more jobs in la and opportunities where u don’t need school

falløut gürl

Jul 7, 2019, 10:13 pm Reply

The saddest thing for me is that i get depressed in school but also i dont have the power to leave it so….rip me…

Harish madaan

Jul 7, 2019, 12:59 pm Reply

It was may 31st

Arrow In The Knee

Jul 7, 2019, 1:42 pm Reply

No caps huh and I'm no joke younger than you…

Nykong J Riek Jr.

Jul 7, 2019, 3:00 pm Reply

I hate my i got ganged up and beaten

Lilboi Jake

Jul 7, 2019, 1:01 pm Reply

Cause school is too hard for you . You don’t have the skills to actually have a real job.

Miranda Freeman

Jul 7, 2019, 5:45 pm Reply

Emma, I am so glad I started watching your videos! They make me feel so relaxed and you are my literal role model! Omg I love you! ??

Chris Fontaine

Jul 7, 2019, 6:39 pm Reply

you were too cool?
there I just edited your video down to 2-3 seconds for you…..

Life and Spirit

Jul 7, 2019, 1:10 am Reply

Your message is encouraging. Really.. so thank you. From New Cal. PACIFIK

Fernando Manuel Salinas Lozano

Jul 7, 2019, 4:29 am Reply

She make that it looks so easy to do LMAO

Fouzia Idrees

Jul 7, 2019, 10:25 pm Reply


Betty Bifwoli

Jul 7, 2019, 10:55 am Reply

Thk u Emma

Gladiator Games

Jul 7, 2019, 11:32 am Reply

She honestly could of not explained this any better. So mature and so well explained. You go girl! ??

G *59

Jul 7, 2019, 12:06 pm Reply

Go fuck yourself

Maria Quiroga

Jul 7, 2019, 5:02 pm Reply

I can’t believe she didn’t have any coffee during this….


Jul 7, 2019, 7:05 pm Reply

Who is on an Emma Chamberlain binge

Sarah Spencer

Jul 7, 2019, 10:24 pm Reply

I know no one is ever going to see this but I miss the old Emma… like this Emma in this video

Kayla Kennedy

Jul 7, 2019, 6:00 am Reply

rewatching this video cause I'm going into my senior year and i left my old school halfway through my junior year because this was me and I was severely depressed but i found the school option that works for me even though its not "normal school" its one on one and I'm out here living my best life so thanks emma for always putting out relatable content and just for being yourself <3

Marianne Johnson

Jul 7, 2019, 12:23 am Reply

very first video i saw of emma.

LonelyGirl Unknown

Jul 7, 2019, 2:39 pm Reply

Just going to school made you depressed? Wow I can’t imagine what “trauma” you would’ve felt if you went through shit that the “average teen” doesn’t go through. ?‍♀️?‍♀️?‍♀️

leonie R

Jul 7, 2019, 2:45 pm Reply

Damn, wish I'd seen this a year ago. Literally just finished school and I actually HATED it. Not a bad student at all but I know that if I was in an environment that I felt comfortable and motivated in I could be getting A* (highest grade). Shame my school literally has no way of coping with mental illness and only cares that you turn up and get decent grades!

Jess Dawson

Jul 7, 2019, 2:51 pm Reply

i relate to this in so many ways & started my youtube channel without even seeing this! comforting to know it’s not just me than went through this.. x

Jess Dawson

Jul 7, 2019, 2:53 pm Reply

i wanna know if she was ever made fun of for youtube, i’m too scared to tell my sxhool about mine cus of people being horrible..

Daniel Bryan

Jul 7, 2019, 4:03 am Reply

School has become so stressful due it becoming so competitive, and having so much on the line.

Sakshi Doiphode

Jul 7, 2019, 7:34 am Reply

We love you ??

Sophia Aviles

Jul 7, 2019, 2:36 pm Reply

wait how did u become like super famous!? ik ur probably never gonna read this but oh well!

Sophia Aviles

Jul 7, 2019, 2:39 pm Reply

omg I totally agree with u! I CANT and I mean CANT sit down for about 2 hours doing litteretly NOTHING! and if I got 8 hours of hw I would probably get a brain tumer or something like I am a very energetic person so I am always wanting to do something and I just cant sit down for that long or stand still! or else I get very impatient and I just do whatever!

Olivia Sclafani

Jul 7, 2019, 4:04 pm Reply

Can’t even express how much I fucking relate to that feeling and not being able to get up and go and the car part.

jenny sctb

Jul 7, 2019, 5:00 pm Reply

wish i could do online school but like that's not even a thing in germany soo

Natalie Boruff

Jul 7, 2019, 3:17 am Reply

We love you Emma and are always here for you?

hazel houle

Jul 7, 2019, 5:34 am Reply

even though you made this vid like a year and a half ago i still love coming back to watch it. this past year, i became extremely depressed from all the stress of all the things going on in my life. from going to gymnastics practice 5 times a week for 4 hours and also going to school for 8 hours. addition, i was juggling the stress and anxiety of homework that took hours to complete and also having to do it at 10 pm every day of the week because i had gymnastics and came home late at night. i also missed a lot at school because i had to leave early to make it to the gym for practice. i got frustrated all the time because i felt trapped in a loophole of going to school, going to practice, not finishing my homework, getting bad grades, and still having to wake up early the next day and pretend it never happened so i could keep up. i got so anxious and had mental breakdowns often. i would sometimes miss practice so i could get my schoolwork done and i still could not catch up. with all my problems it led to getting sick very often and missing even more. i decided to be home-schooled to see if it would be less stressful and a better fit for me. it was for a while, until i fell back into the same moods and had depression and anxiety from gymnastics. i took a break from it for a while and went to the doctor to see if they could help. i ended up being diagnosed with celiac disease, a chronic disorder where my immune system attacks itself when i consume things like wheat, certain chemicals in food, and in general, gluten. this affects your whole body and can lead to serious conditions, which explained why became depressed and anxious and stressed for no reason all of the time. after i cut gluten out of my life, i started to feel much happier and healthier, but i learned that homeschooling was definitely not for me. i also discovered that even without my health low, i just wasn't passionate about gymnastics anymore. i quit the sport and found a new love for tennis, and now i am going back to public high school this coming year. emma helped me realize that yes, there are always alternatives to something you just aren't comfortable with. she helped me also find out what my true passions and feelings were. thanks emma 🙂
ps if you read all the way to the end thank youu you're a real one 🙂 thanks for hearing my story lol.

Krissy Liang

Jul 7, 2019, 4:17 pm Reply

I thought I was alone in this

maggie powell

Jul 7, 2019, 9:10 pm Reply

wait so what schooling does she do

Rezu Horu

Jul 7, 2019, 1:43 pm Reply

Stupid bitch

Here i Amp

Jul 7, 2019, 3:11 pm Reply

I support you <3

Zoé Gressens

Jul 7, 2019, 10:49 pm Reply

July ‘19 someone?

hamnanaz azzguard

Jul 7, 2019, 1:51 am Reply

I have bad thoughts and it is the worst it is bad that I cant think I cant move and I dont want to get out of my bed I feel so bad all the time I would cry at school any on want to tell me how to get over it because it is in my head still I tell everyone about it but my mind it is hard to accept it

Jake Thiesen

Jul 7, 2019, 5:27 am Reply

love your vids, dont change the way you are at all. 😉


Jul 7, 2019, 12:08 am Reply

Emma you are the best youtuber ever, you are so freaking funny and I love your videos?

David Kuntschik

Jul 7, 2019, 1:47 am Reply

well, Emma, you sound very intelligent ?? in #StupidAndGeniusWithEmmaChamberlain I just somehow stumbled into your world now you've got me trapped ?. I stayed up all night streaming your brilliant and hilarious podcast I only have 5 left to get all caught up. It seems like your intelligence is developing a useful gameplan to continue taking care of yourself first. Do not worry about the school thing. I was kicked out my senior year for debating the teachers and proving they didn't know shit about the fucking subject they taught. I got a GED, went to college 5-years later took the 2-courses I shamed the teachers in, brought my transcript in with a 98 in one and a 107 in the other so they gave me my diploma.

Karsyn B

Jul 7, 2019, 6:21 am Reply

Gonna be a senior this year and ever since about my 7th grade year I’ve been wanting to do online school but I’m to scared to ask my parents!

Gia Loren

Jul 7, 2019, 9:55 am Reply

loved this emma! your lucky that your parents supported you x

Gia Loren

Jul 7, 2019, 11:35 am Reply

love your honesty! and look how far you've gotten. you should be proud of yourself

Miranda Hastings

Jul 7, 2019, 6:48 pm Reply

Made me cry 🙂 thank you

Liuba De La Luna

Aug 8, 2019, 1:50 am Reply

If she was black would she still get the same attention? ? Just curious..

Angie Velez

Aug 8, 2019, 3:25 am Reply

Little did she know that in the future she would have 8 million subscribers, have her dream of living in LA come true and get involved with big events like fashion week

Ebby H

Aug 8, 2019, 4:44 am Reply

i know this is old, and i already graduated but i have NEVER related so hard to a video IN GENERAL ever

Eiad Ahmed

Aug 8, 2019, 6:01 pm Reply

Throwback to Emma starting yt and being ultra cute ❤️
Who also thinks that she was so sweet when she said : „I think we have a special bond and I don’t wanna ruin it


Aug 8, 2019, 12:03 am Reply

oh well

Savage Lion

Aug 8, 2019, 1:38 am Reply

I graduated high school 3 years ago but I’m still mad about what happened from my past high school years. I been bullied way too much, my “friends” do me dirty turning out being fake and most apparently toxic teachers ??‍♂️

DaLovely Wolf

Aug 8, 2019, 4:47 pm Reply

I only get depressed becouse of school and the stress and other things

Migle Leli

Aug 8, 2019, 6:48 pm Reply

I love vlogging too❤️

Lucy Dixon

Aug 8, 2019, 3:32 am Reply

I feel so connected to this video its weird hahaha

Kennedy Scott

Aug 8, 2019, 3:12 pm Reply

It’s May 31st not May 30th

Tilda Axelsson

Aug 8, 2019, 5:14 pm Reply

I feel like many students are depressed but aren’t able to talk to anyone cause they feel like nobody understands them

b1g saD

Aug 8, 2019, 4:18 pm Reply

Depression is a real thing! But online school is still an option for the people who are depressed or socially anxious so they can still continue to get an education and have a great future

Jaydn Eisner

Aug 8, 2019, 3:09 am Reply

Hi Emma I’m Jaydn and this video is helping me a lot because I’m trying to decide if I should stay in public school or go into online school I work better without distractions and I have super bad anxiety and school also makes me depressed I don’t wanna have to go through what I’d did last year so I think I’m going to do online school and I get my license next year and all my friends will have their licenses soon so ya can still be social

cheesehead209 gaming

Aug 8, 2019, 10:20 am Reply

Every time I think of school I punch the air

AXEL Estrada

Aug 8, 2019, 9:33 am Reply

This video reminds me about every single thing that happens in your it's for a reason!!
I think that's CRAZY!!
This is how many people think it's mind blowing [think about it]

Calvin Susanto

Aug 8, 2019, 1:47 pm Reply

Because you're ugly

Gabi Stagg

Aug 8, 2019, 6:47 pm Reply

emma i might be late but we totally understand what you're going through. or at least my sis and I do.
everyday my sister would say "mom i cant go to school, im sick." and my mom thought she was saying it to get out of school. later we found out that it was her physical and mental health that were just going INSANE. about 10 years later she was diagnosed with anxiety and depression, and on top of that she found out she cant have kids AND she's bipolar.
more on my side, school makes me go CRAZY. all the drama and hiding from people has caused me to have anxiety and some other stuff i dont know how to spell.
school is just a stressful place. they expect you to get through 7 hours of homework, and sometimes as soon as i get home i would just burst into tears. but now seeing that other people are going through the same things its caused me to be stronger in getting through the day without crying or being bullied.

no one knows who this person is unless if you watch fairytail on netflix, a strong and independent woman had to say goodbye to her childhood friends, and kill her lover in order to save millions but she said,

"Live each day as if it were your last and live your life to the fullest. dont sit around feeling sorry for yourself and have fun." – Titania Erza Scarlett, Queen of the Fairies, of the magical guild Fairytail.

Daisy Willow

Aug 8, 2019, 10:16 pm Reply

school is just not the place for some people. I hate when people say that its just kids being lazy and that they just don't want to do the work. no. some of us are depressed, some of us have crippling anxiety some of us are being bullied, some of us have massive issues at home. its not fair for people to call children lazy simply because work is involved with something we don't want to do. the school system is mentally draining and feels like I'm being sent off to jail everyday honestly and its sitting behind a desk doing things that I hate and feeling dumb because I can't do it, and school is just not good for me. its such an unhealthy environment for me because its draining and I hate it. lol soz rant over

Matthew Frausto

Aug 8, 2019, 12:50 am Reply

Hml mah

Gianella Portillo

Aug 8, 2019, 4:55 am Reply

Literally everyone calls me a drop out but I didn’t drop out I got online school I’m still getting my diploma I can go on stage if I wanted too , it’s not dropping out if you’re still In school working for that diploma .


Aug 8, 2019, 6:01 am Reply

I’m 17, I failed my 9th grade year, and because of that I changed schools and completed 9th. I went to 10th and recently found out I failed as my attendance was fucked. I’ve been depressed and haven’t gotten out of it for many years now. I failed every class except my music classes. I love music and always will, I loved going to school to play music with my band and talk about music stuff. Everything else made me want to kill myself. For anyone reading this, you should do whatever you want in life that makes you happy! Because true happiness, (at least to me) seems rare. Very few times in my life have I been happy. So when I am, when I’m rocking with my friends and shredding on my keyboard, well that’s a nice feeling. Thanks


Aug 8, 2019, 8:28 am Reply

“Too much on your plate” at 16? Really? Wow… Not sure how to break it to you what’s to come…

trinidad madeo

Aug 8, 2019, 9:30 pm Reply

i love u emma

Aaron C

Aug 8, 2019, 3:20 am Reply

Agree completely! The education system of 8-3 works for very few. Most just grin and bear it, but that’s no way to live a life. Awesome to see someone find something that they have a passion for! I wish there was an answer to the broken system high school.

Zara Linsell

Aug 8, 2019, 8:35 am Reply

I mean look at her now! 8.2 million subscribers including me! She cheers me up and I can’t believe that she had to go through this trauma just to find her dream! Hats of to you Emma! ???❤️❤️❤️

Siwanator Forever

Aug 8, 2019, 8:50 am Reply

Why does she look like JoJo Siwa, is it because her ponytail is a little tilted lol

Денис Торопов

Aug 8, 2019, 4:11 pm Reply

Only my opinion, if you have a oportunity to do what you want, why should u do what people think that we must do ? I appreciate it, you are doing absolutely right

Extraterrestrial Alien

Aug 8, 2019, 7:19 pm Reply

When you want views:

Dramatic title
All lowercase letters in title
No makeup
Serious face


Aug 8, 2019, 5:36 am Reply

Your on the edge of your bed ha

Marwa Jabour

Aug 8, 2019, 10:40 am Reply

And know she is thriving being one of the most successful teenager. Working with LV, W magazine, Vogue and the list is long. Having her own podcast. A merch line. Being a Soulcycle Queen. And being the happiest she has ever been. I'm proud❤

Will Tapley

Aug 8, 2019, 9:38 pm Reply

Can I sniff your socks?


Aug 8, 2019, 9:50 am Reply

finally someone i can relate to about how my sophomore year is my most stressful fucking year ever..it literally made me quit youtube for a long ass time and it’s such a waste

Hanna Bananaa

Aug 8, 2019, 1:27 pm Reply

My goodness kids these days…no wonder u're called as 'Generation Strawberry'. Like, ur a teen & it's your legit RESPONSIBILITY to attend school. Freakin'deal with it. Sheesh.

NaDiNe Turner

Aug 8, 2019, 9:21 pm Reply

I wanna be home schooled so badlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ?

Karen McCarthy

Aug 8, 2019, 10:04 pm Reply

"If something isn't making you happy then change it!"
Omg I so wish I could??


Aug 8, 2019, 10:26 pm Reply

omg she had a voice back then holy shit

Madison Nunes

Aug 8, 2019, 10:34 pm Reply



Aug 8, 2019, 10:50 pm Reply

ShE hAs HeR vOiCe ??????

_Memedud _

Aug 8, 2019, 11:44 pm Reply

Emma @ school: wak

Adia Moxie

Aug 8, 2019, 12:09 am Reply

I love you girl and I hope you know that we are all here for you!!!!!

Bibbelyboo 53

Aug 8, 2019, 12:23 am Reply


Mixy Studios

Aug 8, 2019, 12:55 am Reply

Yo I came from her most recent video and her voice sounds so much higher lmao

Mark Shaeffer

Aug 8, 2019, 2:03 am Reply

You need some makeup sis.

Otaku Gamer

Aug 8, 2019, 2:46 am Reply

“The day before June 1st is August 30th right?” BAHHAHAHHAJHAHAHAHAHA

Aponte Anthony

Aug 8, 2019, 3:45 am Reply

Fast Forward sis you got is all now just keep building you're Empire

Shannen Vega

Aug 8, 2019, 10:48 am Reply

Wow her voice was different HAHHAHAHA

That One Actor

Aug 8, 2019, 7:25 pm Reply

Emma, I know you won't see this, because it's freaking 2 years old, but thank you so much for making this! It really shows you as a real person, and for people like me, who are trying to get to where you are eventually, it helps encourage me and show me that it's attainable, and at the end of the day, even famous, amazing youtubers are real people, with real problems.


Daniel Fleming

Aug 8, 2019, 10:26 pm Reply

I'm so sorry with what you went through Emma and I just want to say that I really love your videos and you are a very nice person and I right now unfortunately am going through a sad time I mean I am feeling very upset most days with a lot of stuff and I watch a lot of youtubers to help lift me and cheer me up and I want to thank you for being a great person ?

average life

Aug 8, 2019, 10:40 pm Reply

I finished school this year and literally I am so glad. I won't miss it one bit. I love learning and all but school just made me miserable.

will Spieler

Aug 8, 2019, 5:57 am Reply

This comment section is so relatable

Noaia Summer Gray

Aug 8, 2019, 8:30 am Reply

Crazy how i relate so much

Nenad Cetvei

Aug 8, 2019, 6:28 pm Reply

You did what

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